I find it slightly amusing that even on a messageboard created for multiples dealing with trauma there are those that have to state that their multiplicity was not created by trauma. It isn’t that I don’t believe them, it isn’t that I even think its inappropriate. I just find it amusing how some are so desperate for people to know… (more…)
It’s a strange place to be, neither sick nor well. We have just come out of a major depressive, anxious, phobic period, so we know how close our sickness is, and yet we can still feel the health here. It is also a hard place to be. I know as I get better I need to focus on the health,… (more…)
A long time ago now someone asked me where Lawyer’s Head was, what it looked liked. I was looking through a site on NZ tourism tonight and found a picture of it. I don’t even remember who asked me. And to be very umm.. bleak and depressing… if anyone wants to see the place we will kill ourselves here’s the… (more…)
For anyone that’s interested, we dyed out hair, it is now red. And not just red, but flaming orange red, planes will be landing on my head red. I am not saying I don’t like it, I am not saying I do like, I am saying I suppose we never do anything in half measures
So we finally had one of those duh well of course moments. We couldn’t work out why it was so hard to reconnect with a couple of friends even though for the most part we have come out of the downward spiral. (Still dealing with some heavy shit, but the intensity is now at a manageable, at least for us,… (more…)
I cut my hair today, well the hairdresser cut my hair. It’s short, just below my ears, after having such long hair we feel really cold without it around our neck. Now the big decision, do we dye it red or black. Such decisions drive us insane
Out of the Blue, a New Zealand movie about the massacre at Aramoana has just filmed at the Toronto Film Festival. The story is about a man who in 1990 went on a killing spree in the small township of Aramoana. Actually they say the movie is not about the man’s killing, but how the small township dealt with it. … (more…)
So these last few days have really sucked. I think the depression is coming back strong again. Actually ended up buying a packet of cigarettes yesterday, they are almost finished. I am hoping it is just a glitch and when they are gone we can go back to not smoking. That’s the plan we will see. I have just lost… (more…)
It’s been an interesting few days.  The hurt of disappeared friendships is almost vanished. They weren’t intense friendships, and they weren’t for very long, but the process of them disappearing involved a lot of hurt, and we had to go through the process of releasing that hurt back to where it came from. We haven’t quite made it fully to… (more…)
So again I wander across one of those posts that say, “such and such can’t really be multiple because… and I end up doing the whole head banging, sighing walking away in great sadness thing. Really these sort of posts do bring me such sadness, perhaps I am emotionally invested even when I do not know or care about the… (more…)