Yesterday’s wish list was mindless activity. I haven’t been able to find anything like that today. I try to do things that are important, or even enjoyable and I can’t get my brain to sit with it. When I don’t do anything, just waste time watching TV or playing crap on the computer I get more and more agitated. It’s… (more…)
So I was bored and very twitchy today, so to keep myself from doing things I shouldn’t, I online shopped. Now since I don’t have a credit card or means to pay for one if I did (or stolen someone else’s) it was all just for my amusement. And because I was still feeling twitchy after dinner, I wasted time… (more…)
I’m so close to dropping out it’s scary. Or is it a relief. I don’t know. Don’t tell me it’s just stress, don’t tell me everyone feels this way, don’t tell me I can do it, or it’s so close to being over. Just don’t tell me that, I don’t give a damn. I want to resign, drop out. Anything… (more…)
Because we really are this depressive right now
After what I wrote earlier, I need to share this.
I got online this morning to find someone had turned my yahoo pink. Oh god the horror. In a fit of boredom last night I decided to watch last years season of So You Think You Can Dance. I love the show and am currently watching season 9 online, but I think they only ever played a couple of seasons… (more…)
I love my dad and I know he loved me. In those moments when I question that, I remember, when cancer had eaten away the parts of his brain that allowed him to talk, the expression that lit up his face on seeing me. So I know, I know he loved me, I just know how little that actually means… (more…)
The other day I was in my reading & writing group, and they were discussing some practicalities for another person’s edited book project. Someone said, it should be about 6 to 8 chapters long, and between 40 and 50 000 words. It hit me that I’ve just done that. I have written just over 40 000 words, compiled eight chapters,… (more…)
First. My butt cheeks are so damn sore. I’m walking so stiffly at the moment. Will teach me for walking down High Street. So anyway, moving on from my pained muscles. I’ve been watching the latest season of Masterchef Australia online. It’s really the only version of Masterchef I like, but the point is I am having a reverse heteronormative… (more…)
So when I decided to go have a look at the multiplicity related forums on Fetlife, I remembered why I don’t hang out there much anymore. It appears there has been a push to trigger warn everything in the last few weeks. I never noticed any trigger warnings when I first started going around them. And if there were it… (more…)