Another Irrelevant Ramble

I understand why I always crave a cigarette after therapy, it’s stressful, and smoking was my main form of anti-anxiety medication. However, I wonder why I crave cigarettes when doing housework. It’s the oddest thing, even now after luxing or cleaning the bathroom I want a smoke.

I get that smoking is bad. I think it’s good to help people stop. I’m not pro-smoking, even if I would be still smoking now if I could have afforded it. But I find the anti-smoking campaigners to be the most self-righteous bunch of people. Whenever I hear one of them ranting on about the evils of smoking I want to light up, I want to start smoking, I want to say fuck you and blow smoke in their faces. Seriously I don’t think they do their cause any good. And then there is the scapegoating of the smoking industry and smokers. Politicians can denounce smokers, make regulations, increase taxes and no one cares. Say or do the same thing with alcohol all hell would break loose, and jobs, specifically, their jobs would be under threat. Address issues about domestic and child violence, look at our poverty levels, investigate issues about social justice, that’s all in the too hard basket, too controversial, so instead we’ll just stand on this box and scream about the evils of tobacco.

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I know no one else I know watches Australian Masterchef so this is all pointless to you, doesn’t stop me though.

Ben and Andy, such a bromance. Although I so want them to end up in a happy gay cooking partnership.

What I don’t get is what the story with Julia is. I just don’t get the way this woman becomes at the centre of everything. Is it because she’s tall, slender and blonde? Am I that cynical? Yeah I really am. From the beginning she was proclaimed the dessert queen. Ok yes, she loves desserts and baking, she wants to run her own pastry shop. But there were two other women on the shop that were into the baking side of cooking, one of them also making it to finals week, but they were completely overlooked, it was like they didn’t count, like they didn’t compare. Then there have been the times when she didn’t do well with her cooking. Instead of treating her like all the other contestants, where the judges have gone, yeah you’ve had a bad day, this isn’t right, you could have done better, they seen to rush to find good things to say, to spin it into a positive review of her attempt. Yes she gets teary eyed, and maybe the judges fall for some little girl needing protection issue, I don’t know. I just don’t get it. To me she comes off as arrogant, considering herself better than and above everyone else, but hey, she’s pretty, young and blonde, so perhaps ability and personality don’t matter.

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I was on a forum on fetlife, Intelligence Kink. I assumed, when joining it was a group for people that liked more intellectual pursuits, whatever that was. What I found was an environment that so reminded me of all I used to hate about DP. It is full of people that not only seem to be out to prove their superiority by writing things in the most complicated and exclusive ways, but also needed to attack others as not being as intelligent, as academic and knowledgeable as themselves. And it gets so very clicky. If you don’t agree with someone they will tear you to shreds, they will attack you on stupid things like grammar, or demand that you cite your evidence for everything you say. If you support their argument then no evidence is needed, issues of grammar and spelling is just for poor losers that can’t win an argument. It’s petty and childish, so yeah, unsubscribed from that group.