Monthly Archives: October 2009

I don’t get why this is hitting me so hard. I keep feeling like I’m breaking down, not sleeping, want to cry. It shouldn’t be this fucking bad

all my thinking

So my neighbour turned up this afternoon with a bottle of wine. He’s a nice guy, not someone I would call a good friend or anything but yeah, nice enough. But I did a stupid thing, when he brought out a second bottle I kept drinking and got drunk enough that I forgot to censor myself. When he started asking… (more…)

more Master’s distress

So on the active day. I’ve talked to WINZ about a disability allowance. I am not sure how much I will get and it will not fully cover therapy if they give it to me at all. But I’m thinking, well of doing something I shouldn’t. That is, if I state I am going to therapy every week then there… (more…)

from great to shit before the sun went down

Today has been odd. What started off really positive and left me feeling excited and confident has now gotten me stressed and despondent. At the beginning, well I went down to the university and got positive. I started to plan my Masters next year, and found I could take a second chance at writing an article for a paper I… (more…)