Sometimes I get caught up in this thing of not being good enough for someone to want, not desirable, not worthy of love. It isn’t even about sex. In fact it really isn’t about sex at all. Don’t get me wrong, sex is a part of what I crave, but the bigger part is to have someone think I’m worth… (more…)
I grilled some plastic cheese (you know that processed cheese slice stuff) to make a sandwich, and when pulling it out from under the grill some melted cheese went on my thumb. I now have a stinging blister that’s driving me crazy. Strange thing, some of us like that same blistering thing when it happens to the roof of our… (more…)
So in a day and a half I have written the two thousand words on subjectivity and positioning. Now when I write for fun, creating stories for my enjoyment, two thousand words is relatively easy, but this is academic writing, making sense (hopefully) of heavy theory, so a big deal. I’m relieved and actually kind of productive. I am worried… (more…)
I just got an email from my supervisor to ask why I haven’t sent her my work. I found at the email for a long time thinking, well that’s because it’s not due until Monday. A quick bit of research shows I’m a week out. It seems I have lost an entire week. I’m completely freaking out. It’s been a… (more…)
I should be working on my theoretical framework, but today I can’t seem to manage the concentration. I had a dream last night, the details of which have drifted away as most of my dreams do, but I remember waking up, sobbing, heartbroken sobs. I vaguely remember that in the dream I was resting against someone, crying as they held… (more…)