We’re feeling very multiple orientated again lately. It’s not to say there are times when we don’t feel multiple, its not, for us something that comes and goes, we are who we are. But there are times when it gets to us, that we have to hide it, that there is no one in our lives that acknowledges it, no… (more…)
Holly has been talking to us a lot lately. It’s stupid I know, but we have been very lonely and having someone to chat to has helped with that. But the problem has been we’ve started to consider what a relationship with her would be. When she reentered our life we made it clear we would not engage in conversations… (more…)
I brought a handbag today. I went into Postie to look for tshirts since its been so hot here and I don’t have many lightweight tops to wear. I couldn’t find anything I was willing to wear and got really depressed about how fat and ugly I am. Usual response for clothes shopping, but anyway, I was on my way… (more…)
I just got sent an email from someone who had read my website asking me what my credentials were that made me qualified to write on the subject matter, he specified things like college degrees or employment. I was both highly offended and highly amused by that. He was a high school student so I’m not entirely concerned about it,… (more…)
Earthquakes. Felt a few today, glad I’m not in Christchurch. But still here its starting to get to me, making my nerves all jangly. I feel sorry for Christchurch, things were just starting to settle. Here it just gets me stressed, and unnerved. Dunedin is close enough to Chch to allow me to feel them, although it feels bad to… (more…)
A while ago I wrote about a friend getting engaged. I’m really happy for her, and actually think her and the guy are really well suited and will be good for each other. The problem I have is I’m not fond of him. It’s a small problem, I live in a different country so its not like I have to… (more…)
TV3 just did a follow up on the story I talked about yesterday. The mother in the story, her negation of her behaviour, her excuses and denial anger me. It is said she smirked when her daughter’s impact statement was read out and she went on talkback radio giving an interview in which she denied torturing the child, saying she… (more…)
I hate this time of year. For me December to January are two months of some of the worst memories of abuse. It starts with my birthday, then Christmas, and then for us, there were the weeks of camping holidays until mid or end of January. My birthday gift from my grandfather on my 3rd birthday was my first penetrative… (more…)
I just sent an annoyed bit of feedback to TV3 news. I doubt there will be any response to it, I was just furious and decided to vent directly to the source. There was a news story about an Auckland woman sentenced for 7 years for the abuse and torture of her two children. Another story of child abuse but… (more…)
Since my life is in chaos right now and we are so not in functioning mode I thought I’d distract myself by having a little rant. (no pun intended). We belong to a site called Fetlife, it’s basically a group of forums for people that have an interest in BDSM. There’s a variety of different forums, and most of it… (more…)