It’s been a shit day. The odd thing is, on sheer word count, I got a lot more done today. Yesterday I actually ended up with a negative word count. I handed in the two chapters I had done and then got stuck, badly stuck, on how to proceed to the need section. After talking to my supervisor we redesigned… (more…)
I got my passport when I got home today. It’s weird, how exciting it feels to have a valid one again. I mean, I know I will be using it eventually to go see Sassy, but at the same time, simply having a passport doesn’t mean I’ll be jetsetting off around the world. We can’t afford it, no matter how… (more…)
Ok, so now it seems to be finally ended, let me share with you all the saga of the modem. Settle back it’s going to be a bumpy ride. As some of you might be aware, recently our computer died. Long story short, someone decided we were so toxic they had to disinfect the computer, result one dead computer. Now… (more…)
With everything going on with my friend, and her grieving the death of her father, it’s made us think a lot about our own. The situation is very different of course, not just because our fathers appear to be very different, but also my own attachment issues. I think my grief was disjointed, and probably incomplete, because I’ve never really… (more…)
Another good thing about going down to school to do my study, I get to have my weekends back. In the past when we have tried to do the work at home we end up procrastinating a lot, doing a little, then doing something else, then doing a little. It got to the stage that would be our routine all… (more…)
I think my OCD stuff flares up when my anxiety levels are high. I spent 10 minutes today trying to get a pile of note paper to be neat enough. They were the sort of memo/note bits of paper but because they were two different sizes the pile of them never looked right. I tried to ignore it, tried to… (more…)
I’ve been going to school every day this week. Part of me feels proud of that, going headlong into an area that always brings me trouble. It’s good for school, yes, I’m doing a lot of work. But it’s leaving me feeling anxious, feeling just a little off, like I’m an inch from getting really teary and fragile. I’m not… (more…)
I found out that the bus I use to get down to university does a student monthly pass deal. I pay $25 a month and can use that bus as often as I want. To get to therapy I have to take other buses so that will be an extra cost. But before this the bus fare was $1.92 one… (more…)
On the way to school today we passed a duck walking her ducklings across the street. We had to stop and watch, to make sure they got across safely. Which is kinda cute and all, but we were on the way to catch a bus and the ducklings were very slow walkers. But it seems we are rather obsessed with… (more…)
All those with cats, please give them lots of love today for me. Woke up last night with screaming attached to a memory of abuse. I don’t feel comfortable sharing the details, let’s just say it was about kittens and really repulsive. So today feels like it should be a day filled with cat love. Like an apology, a reconnection,… (more…)